I know, this is not normal. Two posts right in a row. I don't know what it is about this week, but it makes me want to write. I mean, I'm not writing anything phenomenal, but I still enjoy just sitting at my computer and putting my thoughts into words. So many times I'm writing someone else's words, never my own. It's nice. I've forgotten what it feels like.
I wish I had anything to update or report. Well, I went to a One Direction concert Sunday night. Yes, I said One Direction. Yes, I'm 27. It's fine. It's normal. It was really fun. Except when it wasn't. There was a moment that I felt overwhelmed, anxious. It was hot, it was crowded, and I just felt like I was going down. I felt my heart beating out of control, felt it speed up and explode, and I didn't know what to do. I somehow calmed myself down without alerting anyone, and that made me think.
You can never tell what's going on inside someone. I had an anxiety attack in the middle of a One Direction concert and I bet on the outside I didn't break a smile. You just can't know what's going on in someone's brain. When I went into the hospital, people were shocked when they learned why. My boss said, "You're always so calm and in control. Also so laid back."
Most of the time I am. And I certainly don't let other people know when I'm not. I keep that inside, deal with it internally without making waves. People think people with anxiety and depression and things like that should look and act a certain way. But in reality, that is so not true. You can't tell what's going on in their heads. What looks like calm waters on the outside could be a monsoon of emotions and thoughts inside. That's the way I feel a lot. I have days where I'm so depressed that I don't want to talk to a single person. I want to lay in my bed, turn the lights off and just stare at the ceiling all day. But I don't tell anyone that and you fight those urges to brush everyone off. To isolate yourself.
I found that I've been having so many bad days lately, I forget what a good day feels like until I have one. Then I get suspicious because I'm having a good day. It's a vicious cycle.
Anyway, those were just my thoughts today. I found another amazing Facebook note, which I titled "100 Truths: I'm procrastinating in the library." What can I say, I'm very creative. Published in 2009. I was 21 and a sophomore in college.
1. last beverage→ Diet Pepsi, currently drinking it. A bottle of water
2. last phone call→ Mom, but she didn't answer me :( I call people all the time at work. But last personal call was from my Mom.
3. last text message→ Nicole Again, my mom.
4. last song you listened to→ A Ron Pope song.. Come to California Phenomenal - Eminem.
5. last time you cried→ I haven't cried in a long time.. About five minutes ago. Having a bad day.
SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
1. dated someone twice → nope Negative
2. been cheated on? nope Negative
3. kissed someone & regretted it? nope Affirmative
4. lost someone special?→ yes Yes
5. been depressed?→ yes Yes
6. been drunk and threw up? nope I can change this answer - I sure have. It wasn't pleasant.
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
1. Green Teal
2. Orange Blue
3.Blue Seafoam Green
THIS Semester HAVE YOU: None of these apply to because for me there is no semester.
1. Made new friends → yes!
2. Fallen out of love → nope.. or in love for that matter
3. Laughed until you cried → yes!
4. Met someone who changed you- I don't know yet
5. Found out who your true friends were → yes!!!!!!!!
6. Found out someone was talking about you→ I wouldn't be surprised if a person...*cough* was
7. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→ noppers
8. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life → I'd say about 8/9 of them
9. How many kids do you want to have→ I don't even know if I want kids... Zero.
10. Do you have any pets --> yes! my doggie. Personally, no, but my parents have a dog that I like.
11. Do you want to change your name→ I actually like it.. Its grown on my in the 20yrs I've had it
12. What did you do for your last birthday→ Ugh... I don't remember, it was a long time ago I went down to visit my friend from high school in Arkansas.
13. what time did you wake up today → 7:00AM 6:45 a.m.
14. What were you doing at midnight last night ---> homework/reading I was just closing down my computer and getting ready for bed.
15. Name something you CANNOT wait for → this summer! Friday, because I get to see 5 Seconds of Summer in concert. I am so pumped. Hoping for a good day.
16. Last time you saw your father→ Sunday Yesterday, which was Monday.
17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life → I wish.. I had money That has not changed. I also wish I could feel normal.
18. What are you listening to right now → Ron Pope: Fireflies, and random chat in the library The sound of my fan and the faint sound of thunder outside.
19. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom--> yes! Today even! Um, I obviously must have but I can't remember. I've talked to a cat named Tom thought.
23. What's getting on your nerves right now? --> The guy to my right.. My arm, because it hurts.
24. Most visited webpage --> Sadly facebook.. I need a life I honestly don't know. I'm not on web pages much anymore for personal reasons, I just use apps. I'd have to say Facebook.
1. Whats your real name → Morgan Faye Bergmann
2. Nicknames→ Uh.. Maureen, Ahppy, Morgs, I mainly go by Ahppy and Ahpples now.
4. Zodiac sign → Cancer/Gemini.. Prince William and I were born on a day that can go either way.. I have characteristics of both If I believed in zodiac signs, then this would be the same. But I think they're a crock of shit.
5. Male or female or transgendered→ female
6. Elementary? Sumner Durant Elementary
7. Middle School → Sumner Jr. High School
8. High school → Sumner-Fredericksburg High School
10. Hair color → Brunette "Chocolate Brown" according to the box.
11. Long or short---> Found out that it's rather long today I think my hair might be the longest I've ever had it.
16. Height → 5'9-5'10
17. Do you have a crush on someone? Lol, maybe.. No.
18: What do you like about yourself? I like my sense of humor I like my sense of humor, the color of my eyes and the fact that I don't take shit from people. I've just had it up to here with people's bullshit and I'm over it.
19. Piercings → 3 Technically four. I have my ears pierced the traditional way (so 2) and then have to cartilage piercings in my left ear.
20. Tattoos → none yet! I have one tattoo on my left foot that I got senior year of college. I'm planning another, but I can't afford it
21. Righty or lefty → righty
FIRSTS :
22. First surgery → never had one Still never had one.
23. First piercing → ear lobes
24. First best friends → Ashlee Gloede
26. First sport you joined → I'm pretty sure it was either jr.high basketball or little league softball [but I quit that]
27. First pet --> JoJo, he was a great dog
28. First vacation→ I'm pretty sure it was to St. Louis, or to Field of Dreams [but that's not really a vacation]
29. First concert → 7Dust This concert was insane.
30. First crush –> Well, I'd prefer not to say :) My first real crush, not those kindergarten crushes, was a boy named Adam. He was so cute, and the new kid in like second or third grade. I had the biggest crush on him, and so did a friend of mine. I was not happy with that.
RIGHT NOW:
49. Eating → Sour cream and onion chips Nothing, I'm lying in bed.
50. Drinking → Diet pepsi Again, nothing. In bed.
52. I'm about to - do homework Go to sleep. Or read a book.
53. Listening to → Cinnamon-Ron Pope This was already a question. I'm listening to my fan.
55. Waiting for → My foot to wake up so I can go print off an article The pain to go away and to feel normal again.
YOUR FUTURE :
58. Want kids? maybe? THIS WAS ALREADY A QUESTION. NO.
59. Want to get married? yes Maybe someday.
60. Careers in mind? Something in the communication field, but what i don't really know Well, I've always wanted to write my own books, so I'm doing to do that someday.
WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? :
68. Lips or eyes → eyes Same.
69. Hugs or kisses → both Same.
70. Shorter or taller → taller Absolutely the same.
71. Older or Younger ---- older Same.
72. Romantic or spontaneous → both Romantic
73. Nice stomach or nice arms --arms, but looks aren't that important I still agree with this statement.
74. Sensitive or loud → um.... I like sensitive guys, but not too sensitive.
75. Hook-up or relationship → relationship Same.
77. Trouble maker or hesitant-- I like bad boys ;) haha A guy that likes to bend the rules a bit ;)
HAVE YOU EVER :
78. Kissed a stranger → not that I know of Not that I can remember.
79. Drank hard liquor --> what do you consider hard? Yes.
80. Lost glasses/contacts → Too many times to count All the time.
81. Sex on first date --> nope No, I'm not that kind of girl.
82. Broken someone's heart → I hope not I still hope not.
83. Had your own heart broken --> yes :( Yes.
85. Been arrested → nope! No
86. Turned someone down → I don't think so Yes.
87. Cried when someone died → yes Yes.
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? → nope No.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself --> Some days Sometimes.
90. Miracles →I try I still try.
91. Love at first sight —> nope No. I have very definite opinions about this, and they make me sound cynical, and maybe I am. But no.
92. Heaven → of course I hope so.
93. Santa Clause –> YES! :) I miss believing in Santa. That was a time when life was very simple.
95. Kiss on the first date? → nope Depends on the date.
96. Angels → yes I'm not sure. Jury's still out.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? --> Actually, I'm pretty good right now No, I'm okay by myself.
98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? --> No! I have not.
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? sort of.. Kind of...
Oh yes, these pointless Facebook notes. We just wanted people to know more about us, we love to talk about ourselves. I have so many more of these. You don't even know.
Peace.
Tuesday, July 28, 2015
Monday, July 27, 2015
The wonders of "Notes"
For some weird reason, I've been feeling oddly nostalgic recently. Apps like Timehop and Facebook's "memories" feature aide to that feeling. I've been thinking about how much I've changed since I started high school, since I graduated, since I started college and graduated from there. How different am I?
After going through this weird thought process, I came upon these notes that were all the rage back in college. For some strange reason, we all thought it was a great idea to fill out these surveys about ourselves and put them on Facebook and tag our friends to do it too. Must be the narcissist in all of us.
I was reading through these notes and tried to figure out how different my answers would be compared to my 18-year-old self. I'd thought I'd fill a few out and compare them to my younger years. This should be interesting. My answers now are in italics.
PROLOGUE-
1. Who took your profile picture?
-I do believe I did, but I really don't remember
I did. I took it while on vacation with my two best friends down at the cabin. You know which one.
2. Exactly what are you wearing right now?
-my newly acquired pair of shorts and a black wartburg sweatshirt
A tank top and shorts. My pajamas.
3.What is your current problem?
-my final tomorrow.. eek
It's hard to name just one. My anxiety. Money. Work. You name it. So many adult things.
4. What makes you most happy?
-being with people I love
Being with the people I love - friends and family.
5. What's the name of the song that you're listening to?
-BAD ROMANCE!! lol
It's currently silent in my household. I opened iTunes and hit shuffle. Miles Away by An Honest Year came on. I love that song and that band. I get to see them for a third time in a few weeks. I'm very excited about that.
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CHAPTER 1:
1. Nickname
uh.. some still call me Mookie, littler sister, Morgs, Ghost Rider, Mo
It's mostly just Ahppy. Started with Brooklyn, and now everyone calls me that. Boss calls me Morganzer. Like the duck.
2. Eye color?
could you please look at my eyes and tell me what color they are?! Because I certainly don't know.
Well, eye color is still the same elusive blue/green/hazel.
3. Hair color?
-brown
"Chocolate Brown" according to the hair dye box.
4.Height?
-5'9 ish
I'd like to think I'm still the same height.
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CHAPTER 2:
1. Do you live with your parent(s)?
-sometimes.. college student
Nope. Adult.
2. Do you get along with your parent(s)?
-most of the time
I do, yes. I love them very much. They're great people and I can see where I get my personality from, especially as I grow older.
3. Are your parents chill?
-chill as in weird
Very chill.
4. Do you have any Siblings?
-1 brother, 1 sister.
Still have two older siblings.
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CHAPTER 3:
FAVORITE--
1. Ice Cream?
-strawberry cheesecake.. yum :)
Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough. Or just plain vanilla with chocolate syrup on it.
2. Season?
-fall
I will always love fall. Perfect weather. Football season. Hot chocolate. What's not to like?
3. Book?
-well, I like a lot
Asking me to pick a favorite book is like asking a mom to pick her favorite kid. I love them all.
4. Band?
-Daughtry
My taste in music has changed a little. I love and have always loved Shinedown. Best band ever. But I've evolved to love pop music like One Direction, and I love small bands like An Honest Year and The Millennium.
5. Food?
-chicken.
Stiilll chicken.
6. Drink(s)?
-fat free skim chocolate milk from AE
I still drink it, but just not as much. I love water.
7. Pen color?
-blue or purple
I love black pens now.
8. Store?
-Kohls or Gordmans
Maurices and Target.
9. Person?
:)
Harry Styles.
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CHAPTER 4:
DO YOU--
1.Write on your hand:
-not anymore, I used to in high school to remember things
Same answer. I did it all the time in high school to remember assignments.
2. Call people back?
-haha, sometimes
Most of the time, especially since I never answer my phone.
3. Believe in love?
-Indeed I do
Yes.
4. Sleep on a certain side of the bed?
-well, the left.. i believe
Sort of all over. I don't think there's a particular side.
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CHAPTER 5:
HAVE YOU?
1. Kissed Someone in the past 24 hours?
-nope
Nope.
2. If so...where?
3. Had physical therapy?
-never had in my life
Nope.
4. Gotten surgery?
-nope, surgery free
Still surgery free eight years later. (Good thing because I don't have health insurance.)
5. Taken painkillers.?
- does Tylenol count?
Does Tylenol count?
6. Overdosed on pain killers?
-negative
I think accidentally, which led to a stint in the hospital.
7. Been stung by a bee?
-one time, in kindergarden in the back of the neck. I cried and am scarred for life
That time in kindergarten is still the only time, and I am forever scared of bees and wasps.
8. Threw up in a doctors office:
-in the waiting room.. oh that was a bad time
That time in the waiting room with my sister was still the first and only time. That was a weird day.
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CHAPTER 6:
WHO/WHAT WAS THE LAST--
1. Person to text you?
-Margot
It's actually still Margot.
2. Thing you touched?
-the keys on the keyboard
Keys on the keyboard, and putting my hair in a ponytail.
3. Thing you said?
-I'm probably going to go to bed before midnight
Goodnight.
4. Person you hugged?
-Kellie?
Um... I don't know. Not much of a hugger. Probably one of the nieces/nephews.
5. Person you talked to on the phone?
-Rachel
My mom.
6. Last book you read?
-Breaking Dawn.. because I'm a freak
Chaos by Jamie Shaw. I'm one page into it.
7. Last time you cleaned your room?
-uh..
Saturday. Today is now Monday.
8. Last time you talked to someone you liked?
-I chose not to say anything. I plead the fifth
Well I like my roommate, so I'd say her about two hours ago. And my mom. I like my mom.
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CHAPTER 7:
1. What's the most exciting thing that happened to you today?
-Rachel and I finished our project. .finally!
Absolutely nothing. Other than getting home from seeing One Direction in concert at 3:30 a.m.
2. How many best friends do you have?
-a few
I have a lot.
3. Would you rather get up early or sleep in?
-well, it depends. I like getting up early when I have stuff to do. Sleeping in when I'm lazy
The older I get, I find that I can't sleep in much anymore. I used to love sleeping in. But I'm liking the whole 'get up early' thing.
4. Who do you love?
-my family and my friends
Same answer.
5. What would you change about your life right now?
-I would change the fact that I'm not at home yet because of stupid finals
To make my anxiety and it's accompanying symptoms go away. And to make work and life stress go away as well.
6. Would you rather smile over a lie or cry over the truth?
-oh geez.. I hate crying..
Cry over the truth. I want to hear the truth, I hate liars.
7. What's on your bedroom floor?
-uh.. stuff
A trash bag. A rug. My furniture.
8. Who was the last person you got into an argument with?
-I don't really argue with people
My cousin, today. I was so mad with him, I complained to three people about it.
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CHAPTER 8:
1. Do you trust people easily?
-Not really
I still don't. I find the faster you trust, the faster they can disappoint you.
2. If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move to?
-ALASKA! I really am a freak..
Alaska or to London. I love all things British.
3. Do you think you're good looking?
-not really.. some days
Some days. Days I do my hair, or maybe even shower.
4. Could you go a day without eating?
-I have
Well, I could, but I don't want to.
5. How much do looks matter to you?
-not really a lot..
They don't, not really. But I still like to look at really hot people.
6. How do you feel about P.D.A.?
-how about you don't make out in public..
Some is okay. But there's a limit.
7. When was the last time you had your hair cut?
-oh man.. I don't really remember.. I should do that
I honestly don't know, my hair is so long. It's been a long time.
8. Would you rather be mad or sad?
-angry.. errrr
I'd rather be mad. I'm not a fan of being sad. I'm not a good crier.
9. Does it take a lot to make you cry?
-kinda.. I don't really cry that often and I don't like to.
It does and it doesn't. I've gotten to the point in my life where my personality has molded to my "just get over it" mentality and so crying isn't really in my life like that. But I bawl during funerals and weddings. I cry during those PETA commercials, if it's something sappy on TV. Things that aren't really real in my life. Movies. Books.
10. What's the worst car accident you've ever been in?
-when I was like 11 or so when my sister crashed our van into a light pole. Yeah..
That van still is #1. I haven't been in an accident myself *knock on wood*
11. Are you close with your mom?
-yup
Absolutely.
12. Do you tell your parents everything?
-haha.. nope
Absolutely not.
13. Would you rather be a bird or a fish?
-mm.. I'd like to be a bird. I don't like swimming that much
I still think I'd rather be a bird. To soar through the sky like that - sounds amazing.
14. Name one fear you have.
-medicine cabinents.. yeah figure that one out.
Spiders, man.
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CHAPTER 9:
1. If you need to go to the store a block away, do you walk or drive?
-walk
I'd probably drive. I'm very lazy.
2. Does the thought of marriage scare you?
-uh.. yeah! I'm still young, I can't think about that yet
Honestly, yes. I have a hard time picturing myself committing to just one person. It seems so final. So end game.
3. How many kids do you want?
-mm i don't know
I think I've decided that I don't want kids. I can't see myself as someone's mom. It's a very weird concept. I like just being me.
4. What's your favorite color to wear?
-black! lol I don't know, probably blue or green.
I actually do wear a lot of black. I also wear a lot of blue/teal.
5. Who was the last person in your bedroom besides you?
-well, I actually share my bedroom with Nicole, so I'm going to go with her. Since she's.. right there on the couch. Studying like a good college student
Um... I don't know.
6. What are you doing today?
-Since it is officially thursday: I'm eating breakfast at 7:15 while studying, taking a final at 7:45. Clean and pack until about 11:00. Go to lunch. Give a stupid presenation at 12:00. After that, finished packing and cleaing. Load up my car and go home.
Well, since it's Tuesday @ 12:08 a.m. I hope to go to bed, wake up around 7, get ready and go to work. I'll lay out and design a paper, go to lunch at the bar, and go back to work. From there, I don't know what I'll do until 5, when I'll get off work and hopefully go see "Paper Towns" in theatres.
7. What would you do if you found a dinosaur egg?
-uh.. turn it in the police so they can give it to scientists who can then hatch it and create a whole new dinosaur generation.. who will eventually take over the planet (when I'm long gone).
Destroy it. We don't need a real-life Jurrasic Park.
8. Do you get bored easily?
-note really.. i can entertain myself
I can still keep myself pretty entertained.
9. What's something that someone can do that really bothers you?
-talk about themselves all the time!
That's still a pet peeve. Slow drivers. Indecisive people, arrogant people, immature people.
10. Did you ever want to change your name when you were younger?
-yes! I hated my name.. everyone else had cool names.. mine sucked :(
I hated my name because everyone kept calling me Megan. I like it now.
11. Do you wish you were famous?
-Nah.. too much drama and too many paparazi peeps
Nope. I'm pretty happy just being me.
13. How do you like your steak cooked?
-I don't really eat steak
Well done. Pink in the middle gives me the willies
14. What's your favorite song at the moment?
-mm.. any Glee song :) I love Glee
It's "Tenerife Sea" by Ed Sheeran.
16.Can music affect your mood?
-yes! I love music
Absolutely. I'm in love with music. Especially live music. I saw my first concert in high school, and hadn't been to another one until college. Now as an adult, I go to concerts all the time. Music is so important. I love it.
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CHAPTER 10:
1. What piercings do you want?
-don't really want anymore..
I think I want another piercing on the top of my ear to join the other two there already.
2. What tattoos do you want?
-meh.. maybe one on my foot, but that's about it
If money weren't an object, my body would be covered. I want a tattoo on my back right shoulder that says "Some bird aren't meant to be caged" with some design on it.
3. Have you ever been in a cave?
-yes! I went to a whole bunch in south dakota and whacked my head pretty good on the ceiling. Thank God for hard hats
Answer still relevant.
4. Have you ever eaten a bug?
-no
Not that I now of.
5. Do you think there's someone for everyone?
-I certainly hope so.
I'd like to believe so, but my realistic self is saying - nope.
More notes to come! I have pages and pages of them on my Facebook page :)
After going through this weird thought process, I came upon these notes that were all the rage back in college. For some strange reason, we all thought it was a great idea to fill out these surveys about ourselves and put them on Facebook and tag our friends to do it too. Must be the narcissist in all of us.
I was reading through these notes and tried to figure out how different my answers would be compared to my 18-year-old self. I'd thought I'd fill a few out and compare them to my younger years. This should be interesting. My answers now are in italics.
PROLOGUE-
1. Who took your profile picture?
-I do believe I did, but I really don't remember
I did. I took it while on vacation with my two best friends down at the cabin. You know which one.
2. Exactly what are you wearing right now?
-my newly acquired pair of shorts and a black wartburg sweatshirt
A tank top and shorts. My pajamas.
3.What is your current problem?
-my final tomorrow.. eek
It's hard to name just one. My anxiety. Money. Work. You name it. So many adult things.
4. What makes you most happy?
-being with people I love
Being with the people I love - friends and family.
5. What's the name of the song that you're listening to?
-BAD ROMANCE!! lol
It's currently silent in my household. I opened iTunes and hit shuffle. Miles Away by An Honest Year came on. I love that song and that band. I get to see them for a third time in a few weeks. I'm very excited about that.
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CHAPTER 1:
1. Nickname
uh.. some still call me Mookie, littler sister, Morgs, Ghost Rider, Mo
It's mostly just Ahppy. Started with Brooklyn, and now everyone calls me that. Boss calls me Morganzer. Like the duck.
2. Eye color?
could you please look at my eyes and tell me what color they are?! Because I certainly don't know.
Well, eye color is still the same elusive blue/green/hazel.
3. Hair color?
-brown
"Chocolate Brown" according to the hair dye box.
4.Height?
-5'9 ish
I'd like to think I'm still the same height.
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CHAPTER 2:
1. Do you live with your parent(s)?
-sometimes.. college student
Nope. Adult.
2. Do you get along with your parent(s)?
-most of the time
I do, yes. I love them very much. They're great people and I can see where I get my personality from, especially as I grow older.
3. Are your parents chill?
-chill as in weird
Very chill.
4. Do you have any Siblings?
-1 brother, 1 sister.
Still have two older siblings.
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CHAPTER 3:
FAVORITE--
1. Ice Cream?
-strawberry cheesecake.. yum :)
Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough. Or just plain vanilla with chocolate syrup on it.
2. Season?
-fall
I will always love fall. Perfect weather. Football season. Hot chocolate. What's not to like?
3. Book?
-well, I like a lot
Asking me to pick a favorite book is like asking a mom to pick her favorite kid. I love them all.
4. Band?
-Daughtry
My taste in music has changed a little. I love and have always loved Shinedown. Best band ever. But I've evolved to love pop music like One Direction, and I love small bands like An Honest Year and The Millennium.
5. Food?
-chicken.
Stiilll chicken.
6. Drink(s)?
-fat free skim chocolate milk from AE
I still drink it, but just not as much. I love water.
7. Pen color?
-blue or purple
I love black pens now.
8. Store?
-Kohls or Gordmans
Maurices and Target.
9. Person?
:)
Harry Styles.
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CHAPTER 4:
DO YOU--
1.Write on your hand:
-not anymore, I used to in high school to remember things
Same answer. I did it all the time in high school to remember assignments.
2. Call people back?
-haha, sometimes
Most of the time, especially since I never answer my phone.
3. Believe in love?
-Indeed I do
Yes.
4. Sleep on a certain side of the bed?
-well, the left.. i believe
Sort of all over. I don't think there's a particular side.
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CHAPTER 5:
HAVE YOU?
1. Kissed Someone in the past 24 hours?
-nope
Nope.
2. If so...where?
3. Had physical therapy?
-never had in my life
Nope.
4. Gotten surgery?
-nope, surgery free
Still surgery free eight years later. (Good thing because I don't have health insurance.)
5. Taken painkillers.?
- does Tylenol count?
Does Tylenol count?
6. Overdosed on pain killers?
-negative
I think accidentally, which led to a stint in the hospital.
7. Been stung by a bee?
-one time, in kindergarden in the back of the neck. I cried and am scarred for life
That time in kindergarten is still the only time, and I am forever scared of bees and wasps.
8. Threw up in a doctors office:
-in the waiting room.. oh that was a bad time
That time in the waiting room with my sister was still the first and only time. That was a weird day.
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CHAPTER 6:
WHO/WHAT WAS THE LAST--
1. Person to text you?
-Margot
It's actually still Margot.
2. Thing you touched?
-the keys on the keyboard
Keys on the keyboard, and putting my hair in a ponytail.
3. Thing you said?
-I'm probably going to go to bed before midnight
Goodnight.
4. Person you hugged?
-Kellie?
Um... I don't know. Not much of a hugger. Probably one of the nieces/nephews.
5. Person you talked to on the phone?
-Rachel
My mom.
6. Last book you read?
-Breaking Dawn.. because I'm a freak
Chaos by Jamie Shaw. I'm one page into it.
7. Last time you cleaned your room?
-uh..
Saturday. Today is now Monday.
8. Last time you talked to someone you liked?
-I chose not to say anything. I plead the fifth
Well I like my roommate, so I'd say her about two hours ago. And my mom. I like my mom.
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CHAPTER 7:
1. What's the most exciting thing that happened to you today?
-Rachel and I finished our project. .finally!
Absolutely nothing. Other than getting home from seeing One Direction in concert at 3:30 a.m.
2. How many best friends do you have?
-a few
I have a lot.
3. Would you rather get up early or sleep in?
-well, it depends. I like getting up early when I have stuff to do. Sleeping in when I'm lazy
The older I get, I find that I can't sleep in much anymore. I used to love sleeping in. But I'm liking the whole 'get up early' thing.
4. Who do you love?
-my family and my friends
Same answer.
5. What would you change about your life right now?
-I would change the fact that I'm not at home yet because of stupid finals
To make my anxiety and it's accompanying symptoms go away. And to make work and life stress go away as well.
6. Would you rather smile over a lie or cry over the truth?
-oh geez.. I hate crying..
Cry over the truth. I want to hear the truth, I hate liars.
7. What's on your bedroom floor?
-uh.. stuff
A trash bag. A rug. My furniture.
8. Who was the last person you got into an argument with?
-I don't really argue with people
My cousin, today. I was so mad with him, I complained to three people about it.
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CHAPTER 8:
1. Do you trust people easily?
-Not really
I still don't. I find the faster you trust, the faster they can disappoint you.
2. If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move to?
-ALASKA! I really am a freak..
Alaska or to London. I love all things British.
3. Do you think you're good looking?
-not really.. some days
Some days. Days I do my hair, or maybe even shower.
4. Could you go a day without eating?
-I have
Well, I could, but I don't want to.
5. How much do looks matter to you?
-not really a lot..
They don't, not really. But I still like to look at really hot people.
6. How do you feel about P.D.A.?
-how about you don't make out in public..
Some is okay. But there's a limit.
7. When was the last time you had your hair cut?
-oh man.. I don't really remember.. I should do that
I honestly don't know, my hair is so long. It's been a long time.
8. Would you rather be mad or sad?
-angry.. errrr
I'd rather be mad. I'm not a fan of being sad. I'm not a good crier.
9. Does it take a lot to make you cry?
-kinda.. I don't really cry that often and I don't like to.
It does and it doesn't. I've gotten to the point in my life where my personality has molded to my "just get over it" mentality and so crying isn't really in my life like that. But I bawl during funerals and weddings. I cry during those PETA commercials, if it's something sappy on TV. Things that aren't really real in my life. Movies. Books.
10. What's the worst car accident you've ever been in?
-when I was like 11 or so when my sister crashed our van into a light pole. Yeah..
That van still is #1. I haven't been in an accident myself *knock on wood*
11. Are you close with your mom?
-yup
Absolutely.
12. Do you tell your parents everything?
-haha.. nope
Absolutely not.
13. Would you rather be a bird or a fish?
-mm.. I'd like to be a bird. I don't like swimming that much
I still think I'd rather be a bird. To soar through the sky like that - sounds amazing.
14. Name one fear you have.
-medicine cabinents.. yeah figure that one out.
Spiders, man.
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CHAPTER 9:
1. If you need to go to the store a block away, do you walk or drive?
-walk
I'd probably drive. I'm very lazy.
2. Does the thought of marriage scare you?
-uh.. yeah! I'm still young, I can't think about that yet
Honestly, yes. I have a hard time picturing myself committing to just one person. It seems so final. So end game.
3. How many kids do you want?
-mm i don't know
I think I've decided that I don't want kids. I can't see myself as someone's mom. It's a very weird concept. I like just being me.
4. What's your favorite color to wear?
-black! lol I don't know, probably blue or green.
I actually do wear a lot of black. I also wear a lot of blue/teal.
5. Who was the last person in your bedroom besides you?
-well, I actually share my bedroom with Nicole, so I'm going to go with her. Since she's.. right there on the couch. Studying like a good college student
Um... I don't know.
6. What are you doing today?
-Since it is officially thursday: I'm eating breakfast at 7:15 while studying, taking a final at 7:45. Clean and pack until about 11:00. Go to lunch. Give a stupid presenation at 12:00. After that, finished packing and cleaing. Load up my car and go home.
Well, since it's Tuesday @ 12:08 a.m. I hope to go to bed, wake up around 7, get ready and go to work. I'll lay out and design a paper, go to lunch at the bar, and go back to work. From there, I don't know what I'll do until 5, when I'll get off work and hopefully go see "Paper Towns" in theatres.
7. What would you do if you found a dinosaur egg?
-uh.. turn it in the police so they can give it to scientists who can then hatch it and create a whole new dinosaur generation.. who will eventually take over the planet (when I'm long gone).
Destroy it. We don't need a real-life Jurrasic Park.
8. Do you get bored easily?
-note really.. i can entertain myself
I can still keep myself pretty entertained.
9. What's something that someone can do that really bothers you?
-talk about themselves all the time!
That's still a pet peeve. Slow drivers. Indecisive people, arrogant people, immature people.
10. Did you ever want to change your name when you were younger?
-yes! I hated my name.. everyone else had cool names.. mine sucked :(
I hated my name because everyone kept calling me Megan. I like it now.
11. Do you wish you were famous?
-Nah.. too much drama and too many paparazi peeps
Nope. I'm pretty happy just being me.
13. How do you like your steak cooked?
-I don't really eat steak
Well done. Pink in the middle gives me the willies
14. What's your favorite song at the moment?
-mm.. any Glee song :) I love Glee
It's "Tenerife Sea" by Ed Sheeran.
16.Can music affect your mood?
-yes! I love music
Absolutely. I'm in love with music. Especially live music. I saw my first concert in high school, and hadn't been to another one until college. Now as an adult, I go to concerts all the time. Music is so important. I love it.
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CHAPTER 10:
1. What piercings do you want?
-don't really want anymore..
I think I want another piercing on the top of my ear to join the other two there already.
2. What tattoos do you want?
-meh.. maybe one on my foot, but that's about it
If money weren't an object, my body would be covered. I want a tattoo on my back right shoulder that says "Some bird aren't meant to be caged" with some design on it.
3. Have you ever been in a cave?
-yes! I went to a whole bunch in south dakota and whacked my head pretty good on the ceiling. Thank God for hard hats
Answer still relevant.
4. Have you ever eaten a bug?
-no
Not that I now of.
5. Do you think there's someone for everyone?
-I certainly hope so.
I'd like to believe so, but my realistic self is saying - nope.
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